care more than some think is wise; risk more than some think is safe;
dream more than some think is practical; expect more than some think is possible


another 365 days come an' gone ...

it does make me think and consider all that the Lord has done, is doing, and encourage me to think of what and where he may take me this next year ... both physically, as in travel, and more importantly spiritually!

my year in the briefest of reviews:

1) development of amazingly close friends in auburn in a very short time frame, in horticulture and at Lakeview (my church home)

2) graduation and real life then knocking hard on my door ... with job prospects and grad school pursuit ...

3) the decline of a job with no certain plans and then grad school literally falling into my lap, within days prior to school starting

4) being able to travel to the dominican republic with my parents' church for a week on a short mission trip ... experiencing my God as the international lover i know he is, and falling in love and meeting him in ways i never have before ... !

5) getting to know some folks on that trip i had not know before and now have been so blessed thru those quickly developed friendships ...

6) i love grad school, not classes, but research and those i work with and the blessing of christian professors

7) personal developments in my health and effective treatments and developments in my families' health and still effective treatment and clearly seeing the Lord's great provision ...

8) five years of extra life as my 5th lung transplant anniversary was just celebrated!

9) my family, parents, brothers, and Brooke, my sister in-law!

10) for the Lord still loving me despite my consistent sinning and inconsistent faith, for the great joy of the hope of salvation thru the life, death, and most importantly the resurrection of Christ my Lord and Savior ... !

that, as it turns out, is my top ten for 2008!


a lot of thoughts ...

i recently changed the name of my blog to adopted bastards, with reason enough to leave it that, b/c it came about via conversation, good deep meaningful and lasting conversation, about which i want to remember some important points.

i was down on myself for being a crappy christian, as i had recently confessed some things to my roommate and another unbelievably good friend and brother of mine, both who act as accountability partners for me for certain areas of life. i am very aware and mindful of the blessing they are in my life, and I am grateful to the Lord Almighty for them. ... anyway, whining, that's really what is was, but true none the less, because i am (as well as you, be you a child of God) called to holiness ... my definition of holiness - godliness, perfect righteousness, goodness.

but the whole irony of life as a Christian is, though we are called to holiness and godliness, we cannot achieve it in this life, sure it is being worked out by the great mysterious work of the Holy Spirit in our lives, that work we call sanctification, what a great promise! but still, this is the idea of now but not yet, which is to say, in Christ I am perfect now, but not yet for His kingdom does not fully dwell here, and thus His righteousness is not yet fully imparted on me, as i am still capable of choosing earthly, fleshly sins over obedience to the Greatest and Best.

the confession was a great and devastating blow and realization, that i am not as holy and godly as i act ... and as perceived! imagine that, a christian being a hypocrite! i was, needless to say, bogged down in the nasty, thick mire of my own flesh, or as John described it: For all that is in the world--the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride in possessions--is not from the Father but is from the world (I John2:16). i realized that i consistently walk too closely, involved, and intertwined with the world ... thus possibly making myself an enemy of God, You adulterous people! Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God? Therefore whoever wishes to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God. (James 4:4). the outcome of friendship with the world is so incredibly dangerous, its a bold and highly prideful thing to make oneself the enemy of God, simply b/c He is God, and the entire everything of existence is secure in the palm of His hand ... thus if i or anyone be His enemy, He can simply allow us to be that way, irrevocably ... take for example those Paul spoke of in Romans 1 ...

Claiming to be wise, they became fools, and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images resembling mortal man and birds and animals and reptiles. Therefore God gave them up in the lusts of their hearts to impurity ... they exchanged the truth about God for a lie and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever! Amen. For this reason God gave them up to dishonorable passions ... And since they did not see fit to acknowledge God, God gave them up to a debased mind to do what ought not to be done. They were filled with all manner of unrighteousness, evil, covetousness, malice. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, maliciousness. They are gossips, slanderers, haters of God, insolent, haughty, boastful, inventors of evil, disobedient to parents, foolish, faithless, heartless, ruthless. Though they know God's decree that those who practice such things deserve to die, they not only do them but give approval to those who practice them. (Rom 1:22-32).

its a very real and fine line in which i may cross to act as the enemy of the Lord, and the prince of this world is certainly good at tempting me to cross that line, thats not to say my sin is his fault, my sin is my fault (James 1:14-15). i say its easy, because, well just consider what is mentioned in the bible about faith!... For whatever does not proceed from faith is sin ...(Rom 14:23) & without faith it is impossible to please [God] (Heb 11:6), so then, how often do i act out of faith, or how often am i motivated to obey based on faithful obedience ... and yes, i know this is the same old song and dance, but its a very important song and dance ... so i ask, how often do i make myself the enemy of God through disobedience? how often do i choose lazy comfort over the prompting of the Spirit to go and pursue God? how often do i get frustrated and angry b/c everyone around me is not as good a driver as i am? how often do i choose to please my flesh with an extra hour of sleep than to get up earlier and be with my Lord? how often do i think of myself? how often do i make a decision in faith? you get my point ...

so as i was very distraught and wondering how the Lord could love me in lue of my sin, the ease at which i disobey, & as it were, spit in Christ's face, plunge the thorns in his brow, & crucify him again, as the pharisees and romans did. questions concerning how God could love me revolved and rotated in my heart and soul, causing a frightful awareness of the damning i deserve ... 

then i listened to a voice mail from my buddy in texas ... his message was long and full of biblical truth, some good news, some hard to swallow truth too, like i am actually responsible for my disobedience before God .... amongst others... but then in the middle of the message, like sunlight shining through the clouds on a windy, cold,  and gray rainy day, then hope burst forth to life in the simple words ... "Adam, the guilt you feel is due guilt, but thats the beauty of Christ, He has taken your guilt and had it laid fully on Himself, cause He can handle it and forgive you for it. thats the gospel!" ... Oooooooo! wait, thats to say that i dont have to face the damning condemnation that i deserve! thats amazingly good news! oh how praise wells up once truth is heard and know and taken for what it is ... as HOPE.

then, the matter of this confession of mine was discussed in person between my roommate and i ... it was an awesome conversation. i am very grateful for it. turns out we shared a lot of similar thoughts. also, we are both hard on ourselves, as pointed out by a friend of mine to me, and I see it in my roommate, and as we contemplated what it means to be "too hard on ourselves" the hope, joy and truth of the gospel started to well up in each of us, and between us. and oh how I praise God Almighty with my entire being for salvation and his love ... that he loves a whore and adulterous liar as myself ... and now i am mindful of, for you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, "Abba! Father!" (Rom 8:15) and He predestined us for adoption through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of His will (Eph 1:5).

and so from these series of thoughts and conversations, by which the Lord encouraged and uplifted my head (but you, O LORD, are a shield about me, my glory, and the lifter of my head, Psa 3:3), and filled my heart with the joyous hope of the good news that Christ has truly come and truly forgiven (let it be known to you therefore, brothers, that through this man forgiveness of sins is proclaimed to you, and by him everyone who believes is freed from everythingAct 13:38) , not in part, but in the whole, he has wiped clean my slate and removed the certificate of dept that hung against me (you, who were dead in your trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, God made alive together with him, having forgiven us all our trespasses,by canceling the record of debt that stood against us with its legal demands. This he set aside, nailing it to the cross, Col 2:13 & 14)!

so, due my sin-filled being, I am a bastard ... and sinfully illegitimate child of God, but a child of God nonetheless b/c of Christ Jesus' great sacrifice on that hideous cross, but what a great hope it is for the Christian! I am an adopted bastard, and I praise God so for it!


sometimes i wish ...

sometimes i wish perfection in a skill or talent came instantly ... i received a ukulele for Christmas, as i believe many of you may have heard or seen or asked me to quit playing ... but i wish badly, that i could instantly be a great uke player ... but i guess i will do my time learning like any other musician ... which is not to refer to myself as a musician ...


such a short time ...

today my family and I have invited a lot of friends and family over for a celebration. I hope its a grand time.

we are celebrating b/c this Christmas was the 5th anniversary of my lung transplant. its a glorious time of year for my family and I! its a chance to really celebrate the providence and provision of my Lord and Savior, Jesus the Christ, and how He saved me so vividly. its a chance to show off what amazing doctors and nurses I have and had, who now are simply friends and not care takers! its a chance to sit & reflect and enjoy the memories I have made over the last 1,827 days. its a time of sweet, sweet reflection for me, for my parents, my brothers, and all those who love and care so deeply for me, all of whom I am extremely thankful for. its a chance to consider what my life has meant to so many people, not b/c of me, but b/c of how the Lord chose to work in my life by saving me (physically and spiritually)! its a chance to try as hard as it is to remember what the Lord so mightily pulled me from 43,848 hours ago, from that nasty stench of death that was quickly creeping in over my life .

but on an often hard to balance sense of appreciation and dire hurting in my heart, its also a time of humility, as I must remember and never forget my donor family. i have not met them. one thing I pray the Lord blesses me with in this life is to meet them ... i want to meet them as badly as I want to find my future wife, as badly as I want to be a missionary ... you should get the point. my heart longs so to meet them, embrace them, and weep with them for the pain the experience each year, and for the hope that maybe, just maybe, my life might stir up in their hearts. they lost a child about five years ago, and donated his organs ... and now I am living! i dear never take that lightly, for i am so so unspeakably with my entire being grateful and thankful, and oh how I love this family i do now yet know!

and to those of you who think it odd or weird that I joke and seem to take this part of my life too lightly, trust me, I do not ever take it lightly but I do love to joke about. I joke about it all, b/c its all such a vivid picture of how the Lord Jesus is the Mighty One and the Great Physician, greater than CF ... which is a result of sin in the world. but I cannot take my lungs lightly ... my lungs are a precious life sustaining gift, and the day I forget is the day I will probably die ... maybe, or maybe the day i will deserve to.

it has been approximately 2,630,880 minutes since my transplant, and each of those 157,852,800 seconds has been more than my family and doctors ever thought I would have ... so whether good or bad, faith-filled or sin-hacked, i do not wish for anything different with my life ... I am so grateful, I truly cannot begin to describe how much gratitude there is in my heart, for my docs, my lungs, my donor family, my true family, my friends and extended family, and my life, for my undergrad college career and now my post-grad career, and everything that is such an amazing blessing in my life!

and finally, to my donor family, if by some amazing outpouring of God's grace you read this, please, i beg of you, please get in touch with me and my family ... for I have so much to say, or maybe just simple silent gratitude ... I am Adam Sleeper. I was transplanted Christmas Day 2003 at UAB in Birmingham AL, I am a double lung transplant patient! i love you and desperately desire to meet you and hug your neck!

all my praise and gratitude is to the Great I Am, my heavenly Father and Jesus Christ my Savior!


Brews ... Hooray!

I have been meaning to post this for a while, and simply have not gotten around to it ... 

I have recently decided the order of my top ten favorite beers ... so for as for what I have ever tried, and I have tried a good variety so far ... my favorites follow... Numero uno at the bottom!

  • 10 - Coors (Original) - its a cheap one, and somehow against all logic, its good
  • 9 - New Castle - a nice amber brew, lots of flavor
  • 8 - Killians Red - not a fancy beer at all, but one I like a lot, its amber too
  • 7 - Old Dominion Double Stout - I have only had this once but it left a great impression ... its a very stout beer
  • 6 -Breckenridge Vanilla Porter - is sorta like dessert ... very dark and very heavy!
  • 5 - St. Pauli Girl, Special Dark - its a good commonly available dark beer, and quite tasty
  • 4 - Sam Adams Cream Stout - if ever there were a 'dessert beer' this would be it, its recommended over top a bowl of vanilla ice cream ... i am gonna try that some enough!
  • 3 - Sierra Nevada Stout - i dont like most of sierra nevada's brews, but this one surprised me big time, its great
  • 2 - Full Monty Stout (Auburn Ale House) - its a local brew and delicious, one of the best beers I have tasted ... unfortunately, they are not brewing it currently


  • 1 - really, you should have known this ... GUINNESS (on draft or from the bottle, but on draft is like nothing else on earth!)

Top Five Christmas Movies ...!

My top five go like this ... 

  • Christmas Vacation
  • Its a Wonderful Life
  • Elf
  • Home Alone (One  ... of course)
  • A Christmas Carol

Thats right! For all you crazy A Christmas Story fanatics, it would not, could not ever make my list ... I despite that movie.

Merry Christmas and too all ...remember, Jesus is the reason for the season (cliche phrase I know, but true) ... remember Him tomorrow, b/c as our pastor said tonight, if you dont view Christmas from the cross, b/c whats Christmas, if its doesnt gaurantee the Cross ... God's ultimate glorification and our salvation.




God ordained it in the beginning ... cursed it after the fall ... and the effects are still felt today. yet, i am a firm believer that adam and eve greatly enjoyed their toils and labors before the fall, and obviously grew quickly into the dislike and tedium that we know as work today.

but, i think despite the tedium, the aches, the annoyances, the everything that we all deeply dislike about work ... that there are experiences and work days that bring out, in small degrees, the joys that adam and eve felt before the fall, in there working ...

i had one of those days today. see, i have been here in Auburn by myself now since yesterday morning, since my roommate left ... and there is no one else in town. so today, i got up at a decent time ... 8:00ish, sat around, ate, and went to start working. i worked all day, literally. nothing hard and nothing outstanding, but i got to work ... i left, ate lunch, went back

come 5 pm, i am all done and worn out. got home, plopped down on the couch with a nice cold brew and enjoyed thinking of my day, thinking of all i got done, of all i have been meaning to do, which i have now done. i enjoyed thinking how i have been more or less by myself today and fully enjoyed to the max, even the work i  enjoyed ...

and sure, there was a little mud drivin', but nothing like actually muddin' ... but still

work, it is God ordained. and it was good. 


Stupid Bear

do you know the charmin tp commercials? you know, the ones with those stupid bears. do you know the ones i am talking about?

well, i finally realized something tonight about them. but first let me say, i have always hated those commercials ... i don't care what a stupid looking cartoon bear prefers his tp to be like, i know what i like, and i certainly will never care what one of those stupid bears wants or likes...

i also think those bears are time you see ones of those commercials, just see what i mean ...


to melt a heart ...

there are a few things in life that will, without question, simply and quickly melt my heart ... james taylor's song, carolina on my mind is one of those things ... i write this as i am listening and loving the sweet melodies and words of this song ... 


experimental foods ...

i think if you know me, you know i love food ... a lot

you may not know, however, that i like to attempt to cook ... occassionally succeedding, but i am not in any way similarly skilled as mark is,  his skill level in cooking far exceeds most people in general, not just kids or college students...

but, i do like to try new things, and tonight, i took a chance at grilling sweet potato fries ... or slices or whatever, but they are good. a little olive oil (always), a dash of salt and a shake of pepper, and a couple of scoops of brown sugar! oh how tasty and delicious ... i threw them on my grill (low) for somewhere near 8 or 10 mintures, flipping once or twice ... just be careful not over cooking ... mine were done when grill marks started appearing, if they are really black, they will taste black  and burnt ... also my slices were pretty skinny, but not shaved

I saw thiss on Rachel Jones' blog ... sweet goodness, this is so incredibly true, I almost want to cry ... because I know how selfish I am, even now my heart revolts against this ...

if you want more out of Christmas this year, start by watching this...


One movie ...

One movie I recommend to everyone ... Legends of the Fall, especially for any brother who has a brother. Sweet goodness. Its amazing and tragic, but unbelievably great. Its one of my favorites and an epic movie, if ever there were an epic movie!

Its a 1994 drama film, directed by Edward Zwick and stars Brad Pitt, Anthony Hopkins and Aidan Quinn. The film won the Academy Award for Best Cinematography.

The movie's timeframe spans the decade before World War I through the Prohibition Era, and into the 1930s, ending with a brief scene set in 1963. The film centers on the Ludlow family of Montana, including veteran of the Indian Wars Colonel Ludlow, his three sons Alfred, Tristan, and Samuel, and object of the brothers' love, Susannah.

This movie was shot in Alberta and British Columbia, Canada.

Thanks wikipedia! 

PS - there is a little nudity, other than that its clean


ukulele dreams...

lately, and this is very random, I have had dreams, not of gumdrops or whatever the kids dream of in the story Twas the Night Before Christmas, but rather of ukuleles ... or ukes

I really want one. in fact have asked Santa for one this year. songs like somewhere over the rainbow (Hawaiian version), I'm yours (jason marz), amongst others are some of my favorites and ukes are a key instrument in those songs. 

I cant really express what the music of a uke does for my soul ... literally. it makes a part of my soul come to life, that nothing else can ... i feel like ukes stir up, in my soul, some unanswered longing for heaven, that no other sensation of experience does or has for me

I think, in heaven, ukuleles will be played just as much or more than harps ... no offense my harp-loving brethren!

so, I say keep the dreams coming, cause they are fun and sometimes funny, and keep me longing


4 Stitches ...

Earlier today, I was working on building something, and trimming down some piece of the wood which I had previously cut ... like i was whittling, to shave off the last little bit to make my cut perfectly even!

It turned out well, but I had one more swipe left ... and the one time in several hours of working on this today, the knife caught on the wood, then slipped (as it were) from being caught ... then my arm, and hand, and subsequently this awesome new knife I have, all jolted back toward me! the end of the knife was still pointed away from me, but was flung with the tension towards me ... towards my leg in particular ... sure enough, to make life interesting today, I sliced open my leg just above my knee. 

That may sound dramatic, but it really wasn't, more just silly on my part, for pulling an extremely sharp knife toward me! the cut is about 2" long, all the way through the 3/8" of skin there (according to the Doc I spoke with), down to fatty tissue! 

But oh so luckily for me, I am first aid certified and knew exactly what to do ... so I dashed three steps across the room to my first aid/random medicine draw and bandaged away, gathering supplies ... checking the patient ...

breathing? - check

heart beat? - check

EAD (electronic automatic defibulator)? - check (just in case)

gauze? - check

large band-aid? - check

ace bandage for pressure? - check

That was that, and I went back to work - crazy thing is, it was more shocking than actually painful ... go figure, by the way, this all happened about 5 or 6 pm today.

Later, my roommate, another buddy and I went to dinner, came back to my place to hang out a little. I checked my leg, and sure enough, after taking the bandage up to look, the blood was boiling up and out of the wound, as if it were brand new, and not 4 or so hours old!

Sure enough, I have 3 or 4 stitches in my leg just like that ... didn't assume this is how my day would end ... it the little things in life, like slicing your leg open, than make life memorable and exciting!



I will explain the new title more later, but for now, it comes from a conversation I had with my roommate about who we are in Christ ... we eventually got to the point that we truly are adopted bastard children, redeemed and adopted in God's great work of reconciliation in the life and sacrifice of Christ Jesus, the one Mediator between God and man!



about the manipulation and selling of a false dream buy shopping centers like, the summit (Bham, AL) and Ashely park (Newnan, GA)!

now a short story:

last week (Tuesday & Wednesday), i traveled to Atlanta, driving a van full of undergraduate students among four other vans - quite the caravan - for a overnight filed trip for a landscape construction class. and my qualm is not with the trip, or the people, or the the incredibly excessive amount of driving, but more with the last sight we visited.

the destination: Ashley park, in Newnan GA. this place is a monstrosity of a shopping center. its massive. and IF i ever wanted to go shop (which i don't and never will) i would want to go to Ashely park ... or so that's what the developers want me to think. this place is ridiculous. there are water features and water "fountains" to serve as miniature rivers to white water raft. there are sitting areas, there is such a degree of detail work, that for those people who like to shop, this place would be like a dose of cocaine ...

so we are walking, touring this place, looking at the design and lay of the landscape - which is pretty awesome - but then the guy walking us around said something ...

"live Ashely park"

and this made me want to throw up a little in my mouth ... the idea of a commercial developer wanting me to live Ashley park ... makes me sick, and makes me want to revolt against these superficial, worthless selling points of American culture. there is a massive degree of manipulation, sly tactics to make consumers want to go there just to hang out. for those of you in Bham, this place is the summit on steroids.

i hate this kinda stuff so much is b/c the idea of me (the consumer) living the style of life that a shopping center sells to me, is several things 1) the empty dream of American culture and society, and 2) the very mindset and greed or desire for more that has found us (as a country) in the economic crisis we are in!

this place is selling a worthless, empty, and hollow dream of shopping to satisfy and satiate appetites for more and more materials, which our culture and society has so fully and dangerously embraced as the purpose of our existence!

i will leave it as that


In just one year ...

So, it has just dawned on me that my professors want me to be done with my second degree a year from the 8th of this month ... thats one year from now, more or less! 

sweet moses! 

by the beard of zeus!

by the lions mane!

thats incredible ... so come next semester, I am gonna have to find some time to start talking to mission agencies and/or schools for potential pursuit of a PhD! Thats outrageous!